I feel so lame, but I am...lame.

Even though theres a sunny field surrounding me,I my keep saddness inside of walls built with my own bitterness. Hopefully you won't try to these walls ...cause you can't climb towers. They'd just leave you breathless and sore later.

Quitting you is like quitting smoking...I'm having a hard time.

That's why I created this blog. It will be an outlet for my emotions, cause I don't like talking about my feelings with others. Like how I'm hurting...like how much I want you. How I hate you, but need you. Like...how its only been 2 days without talking to you and it feels like forever. Like how I'm pathetic. For falling for such a creep, cause you are...but thats why you're perfect. Atleast to me. You don't find my impluses gross or disturbing. You don't seem to be bothered by my deep dark secrets, they appeal to you. We're both creeps. Thats the way it's always been, the way...it shouldn't be.

Why is it the only person I think about besides myself is the one person thats wrong for me? Why is that I can't express my feelings to you in person. Why is it that you don't seem to want me as much as I want you? uuuugggghhh

Thinking about you just confuses me...my heart hurts right now. I think I'll write more later.